Resentment to Gratitude
Perhaps the most significant conversion one can undergo is the movement from resentment to gratitude.Let me explain by drawing on the wisdom of Henri Nouwen as recorded in his book, Spiritual Formation..”
First of all: “Resentment and gratitude cannot coexist, since resentment blocks the perception and experience of life as a gift. My resentment tells me that I don't receive what I deserve. It always manifests itself in envy.” It is the curse of the faithful, the virtuous, the obedient, and the hardworking Consider hos those those who have given their lives for loved ones, work hard, and have virtues that are praised, are burdened by resentment in their hearts.
Secondly, moving away from resentment requires moving toward something more life giving, and that something is the attitude of gratitude. Resentment blocks action; gratitude lets us move forward toward new possibilities. Resentment makes us cling to negative feelings; gratitude allows us to let go. Resentment makes us prisoners of our passions. Gratitude helps us to transcend our compulsions to follow our vocation. Resentment exhausts us by complicated jealousies and ambiguities, stirring up destructive desires for revenge. Gratitude takes our fatigue away and gives us new vitality and enthusiasm. Resentment entangles us in endless distractions, pulling us down to banal preoccupations. Gratitude anchors our deepest self beyond this world and allows us to be involved without losing ourselves.
Henri Nouwen calls for a movement from resentment into a graciousness that expresses gratitude. “Gratitude…goes beyond the “mine” and “thine” and claims the truth that all of life is a pure gift. In the past I always thought of gratitude as a spontaneous response to the awareness of gifts received, but now I realize that gratitude can also be lived as a discipline. The discipline of gratitude is the explicit effort to acknowledge that all I am and have is given to me as a gift of love, a gift to be celebrated with joy.
Gratitude as a discipline involves a conscious
choice. I can choose to be grateful even when my emotions and feelings are
still steeped in hurt and resentment. It is amazing how many occasions present
themselves in which I can choose gratitude instead of a complaint. . . . The
choice for gratitude rarely comes without some real effort. But each time I
make it, the next choice is a little easier, a little freer, a little less
self-conscious. . . . There is an Estonian proverb that says: “Who does not thank
for little will not thank for much.” Acts of gratitude make one grateful
because, step by step, they reveal that all is grace.
